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Over Estimation

This is the feeling when you have the less expectation when the fact is most of your friends is reading your blog ---- hyper active. Since most of the friends will know the story line of it. Okiee ... i have argument with Irene over facebook on the matter of 'there will be never the same again once it is broken' phrase. i insist that if you glue it back, it will look the same beside that you still can see the crack from the outlook of the broken materials. But in fact, it depends mostly on how you see the things itself. If you think you can work this out , fuck those pesimictic viewers .. because they fucking jealous on how you cherish and get the best out of the best, they will try to prevent you from getting it ... they are almost EVIL for it.
Some tell her that , if once broken , get a new one as the only one solution to solve the problem. And some tell her that it is good to look forward and get a new one as life is like that once broken get a new one is the best solution. But i have enquiry of all of the experienced that surrounded me - one of them told , only rich bastard got the thought of that replacing any broken issue within your life , this included of love story , the most memorizing story and even thou to replace their fucking beloved parents if it is broken .. fuck it belinda .. fuck you indonesian mind !! You may suck our cock if you want ... Secondly, one of the guru told me .. i have the best mind in my age ... because i encourage people to cherish the one that they possess now. Broken means it is disappearing .. as long as you put it within your heart .. you will get the best out of it .. unless your heart is faded with the matter . So sorry to you Mrs Chris Ex-Gf that i cant freaking agree with your point .. because your life is pathetic but my life is full of surprise like Super Mario Game. And as conclusion, most of the gang is happy with my opinion that i dont put much effort on the relationship matter as i am freaking emphasis on the career story.
Thanks dad that you finally get to know what i am doing and giving me the mentally support that i wish to have all the while. You will never know what kind of torturing life i have experienced all the while .. but i will really provide you the best that i could afford for the remaining of your life ... i love you mum and dad. muakcsss ...
And especially thanks leslie chan for leading me to a good path during the one hour session in old town kopitiam. I never realised that i can learn such a teaching from you .. i finally know that girl is not greedy while they possess quality .. just that everyone of us is avoid to be painful or we called it we love to have short cut to get happiness. thanks dude ... i will remember your teaching ...
aiyoyo ... finally went in to the pasar for some fighting ... hmm .. a big debt coming soon .. but it is within my budget .. hope nothing bad will happen and we can handle this ..
GRrrr ... wen siang .. you really mahu cari mati .. sendiri happy happy over there hor .. bawah the one you suka and enjoy right .. and tell me that she is Lilian kawan right .. =.= Zzz ... sei zai bao .. enjoy more la .. i will curse you to the max ...
Okie bah .. got eyes read my blog mean that you know the story line .. i dont want to comment much until further advancement of the story .. i love ya muackssss =3 !!!! keep it rocking ...

Not the Story anymore

Just went to Phuture and Poppy Garden for a chill session. Thou im not that aggresive for club recently. But from the invitation of partner's brother - Chris Ooi, i got to get my ass to Phuture no matter how. We just need to pay RM 50 or RM 65 the max according to Alvin Leong , Chris source man, but end up when we went to Phuture , there is an event happening there - Keep the Music Clean and No Drug. OMG ... one bottle of Henessy cover 5 heads charge us around RM 500 , and in total it cost us around RM 90 for one night of spending at Zouk , thats out of our budget, and thats the consequences of listening some jackass opinion of promotion of bottel before 11pm. Silly Alvin Leong digging a grave yard to all of us - Fuck him !!! Thou we paying extra than what we have expected but we are really enjoyed the night since everyone in the club is on the high class level. :) We really enjoy caused the service provided is at a 1st class level plus the most of the patrons over there is fall in the high class level - at least there is no LaLa Gang over there. Basically, i dont get fun at Phuture because Henessy VSOP is not my favourite. Hmm .. but Wei Jen and Joel at Velvet do really surprised me and made my day. I enjoyed chilled with them in the club. Hohoho ... okay .. i especially enjoy chilled with Guywayne Low and James Lim in the club. Because both of them really stand a special place in my mind + heart.
RM88 does not end the day of me at Phuture. We went to Poppy Garden to find Wen Siang. His siao nang friends were all in the club and open the bottle like no body business. We reached there around 2 in the morning. But we still get to enjoy the drinks thereeeeeeee - our beloved Chivas. We popping around , bumping around and sipping around in the club . We were really insane in the club because we are really releasing our freaking tension in the club. I knew that i must work farking hard from Monday onwards in order not to furking foul me out from the game - thats why i forcing James and Ball to rush order from our potential customers. we are really working very hard to get our mission done. our mission is not 1 time game - but it is a continuous game play in this industry . we hope to get more suppliers that are really interested in distributing Cameron Highlands vegetable / perishable goods to the local markets / exporting it to overseas.
I pumping around in the club, finally , GOD has a special arrangement to me - i dont know whether it is a good one or a fark one. Lily (she said Lilian is the best name for her) that i met in the club , i thought i myself first day knew her , but she said she met me before (2 years ago plus im wearing a cap in the club and i am freaking cool that particular night) . i hardly agreed with her impression on me because i knew im a beast in the club for the past few years rathers than acting cool in the club. ARghhh .. no matter what .She is the 2nd Irene Berry that i found in my life. She possessed 95% of Irene Berry trait. Really .. i farking tell u really 95% same as Irene. Thats why i am so stun in the club and enjoy seeing every act of her in the club. She, as attractive as Irene, as talkactive as Irene , as stubborn as Irene , the best is - she is as young as Irene. I, Alexlynn, cannot reject a girl that is almost fall in the best category of my life - Tattoo , Bracer on teeth and Long hair ... at least she hit a 50% from my 4 requirements. I am farking happy with it . Ya .. im like a sleeping child .. cannot make a desicion so serious. But i can really tell out my own feeling that - beside Irene herself , Lilian is the one that is really can replace her standing within my heart. :) i hope there is no friend that will really ramput with me , because i m not kidding this time ... If she is the one that is 95% similar as Irene .. i will go after her FULL FORCE .....
Yeah Yeah .. Irene birthday is today - 13th June , She is way too busy to talk with me over the phone because she had a lot of activities that her friends arranged for her . I hope she get surprised and enjoyment from all of the arrangement. Because i dont plan to see her felt sad on her big day. Sorry that i have not prepare any present for you but i had promised you a pair of diamond earring , come and collect from me when you come back malaysia. Actually, i miss the scent of your body , miss the white stocking that you ask me to wash for you and miss the shirt that you wear for sleeping :S ! Please take care over there .. hope GOD has a better arrangement for both of us - because i not plan to work anything on our relationships already .. since i cant see any feed back from it .. i better use most of my time on Vegetable business ... :S sorry my beloved.
I loved you guys that still beared with the believed on me .. because i wont let you guys down ... i will prove it within 2 weeks .. just wait and see. I love you guys ..
- from aLexLynn- aka HCY of son Joseph and Rita ...

Life !! Live ??

Luckily i dint put my blog into the blog grave yard. Thou i am damn lazy to blog out what has happened on me recently. But tonight mood just came around to force myself to blog out how i feel ..
Been reading on an article by Doctor Siva that mention what a different of Genius and a normal one. Genius itself has talent , apparently im not in this group. Entrepreneur itself has traits, and i fall in this group. Genius doent mean that they are always the succesors. Because without training and practising hard enough (putting more time and effort and learning thru all the hard path than any other else) they would not be a successful man in this world. There is a lot Genius around us. But, why cant we see them make a great impact on their life?? We could just hear and see that they are doing fine at the moment , but not something great in the society or industry they are dealing. Can we teach some one to become an Entrepreneur ??? No .. the answer is no. Because no one can teach you how to success unless you are paying more effort to seek out the truth by yourself. Einstein is a Genius, Tiger Wood is a Genius too. But there is more specialise or Genius in the same industry as they both do. Why are they both more outstanding than any one else ?? Thats simple, this is because Einstein never give out on any chance to read on any Physics book that he can ever get, Tiger Wood training so hard (really hard , spend almost all of his time on the driving range course) to fine tune his performance thou he won most of the trophy during his peak period. So .. thou i am a great failure in most of my project for the past 1 and a half year. But i do think this is the path that an isolated soldier that must go thru and experience before we can really make our name big enough on that particular industry that we are interested in. Because we need to practice, practice and practice in order to sharpen our skills. Learning is a life long process that make you become more perfect and outstanding than any one else. I am still a kindergarden student in the market, thats why my business seem like so dull and have no growing sign at all. Because i dint find a good way to fine tune my skill. Only thru learning and practising hard enough than shall your business flourish. And one more trait - persevere , it is the only way to make you a great entrepreneur in this world.
Chinese always said ' The great fear of man is entering the wrong market and choosing the wrong job , the great fear of woman is marrying the wrong man' . i knew that i have been started the wrong job for the past 1 and a half year. Thats why i turn back to the most basic work -- joining and fighting in the perishable good market. But most of my friends and family members are disappointed and frustrated to the decision that i have made on my life. Why not i choose a typical employee life and enjoy the fix payment that i can get monthly ? Sometimes, they really do not understand what i really want , or what i really doing all the while. I have tried to let them know , but just that really no one can understand and fully support on what i am doing. I felt so disappointed on it too. The most terrible case is , the one you loved most is not standing by your side when you needed her most. She not only does not understand what i am really working on, why i am so stubborn on and she does not even SUPPORT me at all. There is one guru on my entrepreneur journey told me that , this will be a hard one if you choose to be the freak one (entrepreneur) as we do not have a proper income during our beginning of journey because we need to build our base, market ourselves and sell as hard as possible to the others. But be steady, you will see the return after some times and during this hard time, even your friends will laugh you, your family not support you, but you must find your loved one to keep stand by your side until you win the war. *sob* For me, i do not possess any of it - friends are really not supporting me at all, family members are frustated on my decision, and the one i loved is not thinking the way that i had now. We both lost the sync that connect us together. I have lost the encouragement and power of push to work after a small chat with her few hours ago. You have seek a good life that you wanted and we have a deal to live great thou we are apart. But do you know , i never blame anyone else that i have had a pathetic life for this 2 years. I have been worked so hard , tension on my living , scratching my head days and nights for solutions and living in loneliness for 2 yearsss . My life plan is designed mostly based on your lifestyle. When you dumped me and flew away to Aussie, do you think bout what will i become ? What will the story of mine will turn to be when i am without you. I have a chance to go back hometown and work and live my life peacefully in the small yard with my family, but i never choose that because this will not be your ideal life plan and i decorated it with some flowers (stay in KL and work) and waiting you back. But .. there is always joke from GOD arrangement. We are no more in relationship. And until the day you are going to graduate (1 more paper to go), im still penniless, still without making any great sign of progress. I am not blaming you that making my life hard because this is the path that i have choosed. I know you felt angry , disappointed , frustrated when you heard bout news that related to me. Do you think i am that kind of persons that will not change when i have learnt from the past or do you think i am really those type of persons that rumours always spread ?? Close friends of mine knew that i am a good fella but as what impression always get the first point - i am a jack ass. i do not know how well do you know me , but if you do not know that i am not the man people gossip bout me , i am really fed up on this. What i promise you i will always complete the task. Because i knew i owe you too much. And i have open a lot blank cheque before. Thats why whatever you asking, i will grant your wish true. Either you changed a lot after you had your OZ life or i had change nothing rather than become more naive on everything that i do. I used to be a boyfriend that will seldom make promsie come true and lie to girlfriend whenever i can -- but lessons taught me that it is not the way to keep your relationship lasting , thats why i change to be more obedient and always tell the truth although it will be hurting. The best is - if i give you a promise , i will do it. No matter how , you are important in my heart as well as standing a very vital place in my family hearts too.
Thanks to my sister, michelle , for trusting me and supporting me all the way. Thou sometimes you love to nag me but i still love you. When things not get on my way, i am really frustrated to myself and hate to talk with anyone. my previous project mostly turn into rubbish because we do not practise hard enough thats why make us fail in the market. Our ideas are the best among those proposed by others , but just that our experience is not rich enough , there is less buyers come in for us. i do not regret on the experiments i have gone thru because i know i have learnt a lot from it . Gained a lot from the lessons too. This time , the last chance that i give myself to gain the first basket of gold- we let ourselves participate in perishable good market. We have a great bargain power , powerful back up and the best products among those in the market . If this one could not work things out , i will really get myself pack up and go back to my home town to stay with my parents forever. Sorry pap and mum that i putting you both as a last resort. Hope you both understand me. Friends that do not know what i am really up to lately, i have pull myself out of any other projects rather than fully focus and maximise my fire on the vegetable industry. Becoming the collector and wholesaler of vegetable - supplying it around Malaysia (if we got chance to do it as exporter , we would like to :) ]. Holding my degree and selling vegetable in the market, a lot of people is laughing at me . But who cares ? I will make my own chapter flourish with pride and money , i will start my Holdings from vegetable business. I hope i can success this time . Because i have no more space to let myself get down anymore .