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Thanks GOD and i have return

When i needed her most. She is always not free. When i felt upset most, she will appear. GOD love to fool me around. Maybe i am a puppet for HIM during my time at HEAVEN. But nevertheless, 愛是恆久忍耐,又有恩慈;愛是不嫉妒;愛是不自誇,不張狂,不做害羞的事,不求自己的益 處,不輕易發怒,不計算人的惡,不喜歡不義,只喜歡真理;凡事包容,凡事相信 ,凡事盼望, 凡事忍耐。愛是永不止息。(歌林多前書13:4-8) rules my life. Thanks for teaching me so much Sis.

I have had thought of giving up my life like that but i am so wrong. Thought of giving back the life to GOD. But The Almighty has send a messenger to me that i must cherish my life because if i were to end it, i must ask from permission from my parents, not the Almighty. HE, the LORD, has send messenger to tell me that life is full of uncertainties, the more i solved , the more i will gained. And do not forget to give more rather than ask more. And i love you again Sis because the LORD has send you down to guard me all the while from doing silly things in EARTH.
The LORD has given me signal that friendship blossom and business nurture. I felt the real meaning from it. know who should we invest for , what should we into at, and why should we enjoy on.
Woot .. i have lost my cable .. thinking of uploading some fried rice pic here. Thanks for Jessie to cook for me tonight. Thou is not as nice as my mum's cook , but is a DELICIOUS spicy seafood fried rice. Somemore all the way bring to me from Puchong, thanks !! And oh ya .. i have washed the container, you can come collect anytime you free. hohoho .. this 38 mui really funny one, call me shorty in fact i taller than you 3 CM leh ... u know how is 3 CM looks like , take out middle finger ... look carefully ... thats almost that range la ... kekeke !!
=.= jie jie , apa i in the pub ark !! how u know ?? takkan u can see me one ark ? or you use friend finder check my location ark ?? This is so not true leh... cakap i in the pub. LoLs .. actually i in the club ma .. Wohoho !!! Kidding kidding ... =.= faster come over KL, want force u spend me a lot of things .. kakaka !!
And i will remember that house door always open for me when i felt like going back. But, i dont hope to go back with two sikat of pisang (plus an empty bank account). Must get something BIG,REAL, WORTHY, STATUS LABEL [hor .. what this mean ark] and something more important before going back. Ngek ngek .. something more important macam a wife la .. a galfriend la .. hmm , need to show to nenek one leh , i think she stay upthere wait till neck long liao lo .. not yet see any of us bring back good gal. KAkaka .. thats why never come my dream and tell me what is the next jackport number.
wuuuwuuu (this is the sound of crying , jessie teach one , but we used to call wuwu as T.T or sobsob) , my leg is injured. Silly new shoe ... omg betul ... too tight !! >. <>
Irene Teng, apa tu ur lappy not good enough ark ?? you take yours and compared with mine , whose one more worst ?? T.T still want ask for a new lappy from me ... sob , i the one should ask from you leh. O.o you poor meh ??? AUD 500 for rental is consider cheap leh .. what la room small small =.= purposely want force son go oioi on floor then tell la. Said he willing go oioi on floor one wua .. i tak percaya one loh !! He is so soft leh .. go oioi on floor , he terus can become ice cream the second day , =.= sure you always kick him down. OMG betul you ark ... torture own son.
Before ending this entry , would really love to thanks LORD. because they will always appear when you least notice. They will send different kind of messenger to tell you whats your next step. We always felt we are the most unfortunate one, but in this world , more people is less fortunate than WE. so , better dont complaint too much when we got shelter, entertainment and family.

i have a lot of thoughts but limited time

Okay .. actually i planned to write a post bout my life for so long. I really meant it !! i dont know got how many of you still chasing after my blog. I hope to get a lot of comments on this blog so that to prove that you guys are still reading on my blog. Okay .. lets start the story.

Few days ago, i am really lost out of my mind. Whether i am still worthwhile to stay in this pretty world. I am in financial distress, career blurness and future darkness. I, without any burden now, also can felt financial distress. This is because my business is not going along the plan that i have did. And the economy is so sucks that hinder the process of my company loan and it make us to slow down the recruitment of right staff to promote my business. Beside that, even when i got the income from my work, i do think that it is only enough to cover the worker paid and the fixed expenses. But not on covering the salary of mine and my partner. How pathetic it was to become a boss like me.

When friends asking bout my business, i really dont know how to reply them. If i reply bad, i dont know what wil they think. If i reply good, i dont think they will believe. And if i reply so far so good, i do think that they know i m cheating them as i want to reliefe their concern on me. But in fact, my business is hitting the most down side again. TwoMAds is actually meeting with financial distress after a series of exhibition and we found out that Malaysian market is freaking out of date compare to the nearest country of Brunei, Thailand and Singapore. Do u know why i said so? this is because a lot of firm do not emphasis on the e-marketing side. They really dont know how powerful are the e-marketing segment. Okay.. maybe im the alien from the group. I came from a small town called Kota Kinabalu which is located strategically in Sabah or aka BORNEO.But how come i can feel the best part from E-Commerce? Because when you read from the influencial blog from the world, you will know why even bloggers can become a millionaire. People will leverage on a high hit blog to advertise some brand. But malaysian is not the same. They will only keep advertise on the lousy and out of date medium - newspaper, flyer and magazine or radio or tv. Dont you think this is only will limited your market to certain area only? Or this will increase the cost of reach (cost of advertising to reach per persons) since you are only target on someone who is within the area that you are advertise. Yeap, this might be a good choice for you to advertise thru all this all medium. But can anyone of you think of the GLOBALISATION term? why dont you just save some money to advertise on a better channel to reach more market so that you can hit more in one promotional activity ??

Secondly, i have a thought of suicide recently. Because my life isnt going the way i wish to. I am in a deep shit of financial distress. My business is not going well. Plus a lot more moody things happened. i really think on how to suicide before. To eat pill, to cut nerve, to jump building or to do something extra ordinary to die. But after a long thought, i realised that my sister is so loving me, my family always open the door to wait me, guywayne is always be there when i needed him most, clive liew will sacrifice his rest time to accompany me, irene will stop maple to chat with me and call me when she know i want to talk with her, Sook huay will help me keep notice some job to reduce my burden, Ball will accompany me playing sports to relax the extra nerve and sweat within my body, and many more will help to think bout me first before their place. From here, i really know that i am not so easy to die because i am the evil within any groups of my friends. And GOD will not let bad guy die so easily.

i have my dream to earn at least a RM 100k within 1 year of business ,but dont know whether this year wish will come true or not. i have visited my playground so often recently. from there , people will think we will go flirt and know girls. But for me , i just wish to go there enjoy my alcoholic session and listen some pop music. I have no other means.

okie .. i am freaking tired of this page .. lets bath and sleep and will continue on the part 2 soon.

time FLIES

Grrrr ... monday ,tuesday , wednesday, thursday ... One week 7 days !! Opppss .. today thursday again . I wont realise this is a thursday by not seeing the calendar from my lappy. Sigh .. time really flies. My mood is hanging on last saturday night tea time gathering with friend plus sunday morning going to cycling at shah alam and was lost during the journey to that park. Time really goes bit by bit and never slowing down at any moment. But ... im still that ZERO at all.
Hmm .. was wondering how was Sense start his own biz by Zero to Hero !?! How that fatty start from Zero too? im really amazed by their milestone and achievement now. was wondering is it that im not belong to the unique one and shall get back my ass to the normal liFe. [woot, am i too moody recently or am i really making decision to go back to the no turning back road of everyone else??]
*cough cough* *flu flu* , shyyyyt !! im still not yet fully recover from my sickness. Yet, i still go for badminton and jogging. =D amazing ~~ i still can jog well !! Nah .. but i still not yet win any of the badminton matches i've played. OMG ... what a noob !! kakakak ... but one thing to be proud of. Lols .. i spoiled one of the bicycle last week !! No one does before but i did it. LoLs !! i cycled till the chain of the bicycles tear into two parts... wakakak !! Maybe i cycled too fast =.= 180km/h !! LOLS ... *sad* end up forget to take down the shop number, forcing all of us accompany me to pull back the bicycle to the shop and ride on a new one. =.=' Zzzz .. everyone is so tiring that day. kakaka .. we still plan to go for Durian but luckily there is no one selling that day. Or else ... Lols .. the ending would be all crawling back to the spot rather than cycling bak.
Hmm .. anyone up to cycling again this weekend ??
Holla my dear. Knowing that you are going to move house soon. (i think within next 5 hours) becareful ~~ ask Benji help you to carry anything that is heavy bah. Or can force Poh Poh to take all those stuff. You just need to bring Xiao Yang and In Du Mei go to new place ok jo. And yeap , the nice pillow from me too. Dont forget take it .. ngek ngek .. suruh your ma chai to help you move house okay jo. kakakak Xppp !!
Kieee .. time to stop all this bull shit again. Back to my work .. ZzzzZzzz .... someone give me a helping hand please. I cant see the front road. T.T i cant see my future.

When The Time is Right

When the time is right, i promise to kill my own dream. Really !! Thats the countdown of the innerself when you yourself cant even make sure what is going on out there. Im surrounded by more uncertainties plus im the one who are with faded dreams and dying heart. I have made my decision of going back to some old place to continue the best of my remaining life. i love to spend the rest of my life with her. Hmm .. the one and only one, who still loving me although im gone mad all the times, scolding her for nothing, dont even pick up her phone while she needs someone to talk with, cant celebrate her birthday for 2 years consecutively, dint help her rub her leg that is cover with a lot of 'o-che', dint say goodnite for her everynight , dint hug her before she go to bed, dint even give her the usual good nite kiss for more than 450days.
But, im pretty sure that even im so blur and blind for my own future. But my heart is always thinking bout her. I sing along a good song when i think about her. This cant be wrong that the feeling of loving someone that is most important in your life. I love you always IRe[n]e !! :) But i dint keep my promsie to build a big house for us before your graduation ceremony. I dint have a big car to fetch you. Cant even afford to go OZ for your graduation ceremony. Dont even have a big LCD and a nice couch for your ANIME time, sorry for a lot of things that i dint even manage to get it done on time. But, the instant camera of your item on list i will at least make sure deliver on time for you :) promise is always a promise.
:/ sorry dad and mum, i cant make my dreams come true. Cant even survive in a good shape in my current living. I have disappointed you both so BADLY. i have tried my very best to get things fix. But ... thats what we called LIFE. Upper class people will always keep their fame while you are in the middle class , dont even think bout climbing up without any help from the class above. Life is cruel. I spend more than a year searching and building my foundation. But until tonight, im really heart broken and wish to start the journey all over again with a different play style. Sorry dad. Im going bak to home very soon because i need your feeding. :/
arggghhhhhh .. tonight the sky is so cloudy. and it same goes with my future. CLOUDY !! i dont know what am i thinking and why am i so emo-ing for the whole week. :) Thanks Wai for accompany me for so many days. :) i have grown up ?? REAlly ?? u pretty sure ?? Lols .. i just dont want keep stay iin the dreams that is hardly become true. so better wake up and find another better way of living before it is too late.
Okay .. once again. Im okay right now after spilt out the uneasy feeling in me. Just leave me alone sometimes i think i will find my ownself. Thanks friends for so supportive to me all the times. Plus encouraging me and hmmm .. how to describe those always lend a helping hand and let me scold one ?? Kakaka .. as long as you guys know im not mean to do that , okay and enough jo. Love ya guys ..