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十二星座之好老公好老婆排行榜

sorry for not updating my blog recently as i just started my training few days ago !! so now its a bit busy to update mua blog !! here i shared some of the things i found on the web !! quite accurate as i think , so just take it as reference if ya all dun agree with it !! :)

第一名 巨蟹座
男-不但賺到錢,更會煮飯做家務,照顧家庭,是好男人的典範。
女-對情人細心體貼,無微不至的照顧對方,對方話點就點。

第二名 雙魚座
男-永遠將妳放在第一位,事事遷就妳,令妳覺得自己像公主一樣。
女-會為對方無條件的付出,千依百順,絕對能滿足所有大男人心態。

第三名 獅子座
男-他會給妳最好的物質享受和照顧,不會讓妳憂柴憂米。
女-雖然她有點霸道,但她為你安排的一切,一定是最好的。

第四名天 蠍座
男-愛妳就愛得專一轟烈,並會盡他一切所能保護妳免受傷害。
女-一旦愛上你就堅貞不移,為你作甚麼犧牲也可以。

第五名 金牛座
男-懂得賺錢又懂得花錢,他會帶給妳不少生活情趣。
女-不但不易變心,而且又很懂得照顧你,常令你感到窩心。

第六名 山羊座
男-雖然有點木獨,但勝在有責任心,他會讓你感到很有安全感。
女-她不懂甜言蜜語,但會務實地幫你打點一切,讓你的生活變得妥妥 當當。

第七名 處女座
男-對將來很有計劃,跟他一起,妳絕對不用為未來擔憂。
女-她細密的心思,總是懂得你的心意,她為你做的一定合你心水。

第八名天 秤座
男-他的浪漫溫柔雖然會叫妳心甜,但他的花心倒叫妳很沒安全感。
女-有時未免太斤斤計較,計算下的愛情又怎會幸福?

第九名 白羊座
男-凡事都以自己為先,不太懂得顧及情人的感受。
女-通常都要求對方付出的比自己多,心態也很自我。

第十名 人馬座
男-粗心大意兼不解溫柔,和他做兄弟比做情人還好。
女-太著重自己的自由,很多時候不理會對方,自己跑了去玩。

第十一名 雙子座
男-跟他一起樂趣的確多,不過有事的話他就會掉下妳一走了之。
女-她一時一樣,很難捉到她的心意,常常要猜度也很疲累。

第十二名 水瓶座男-不懂顧及對方感受之餘,有時更會很無情,令妳覺得毫無幸福感。
女-非常自我中心,最好各顧各,想她照顧你,為你設想也很難。

25句真心话

if i ever used either of this 25 terms on you , you must be very proud of !! Friends are welcome copy and paste in your msn personal msg , so that i knew my phrase is really working and this is so useful to all of my friends.

1. 我以為小鳥飛不過滄海,是以為小鳥沒有飛過滄海的勇氣,十年以後我才發現,不是小鳥飛不過去,而是滄海的那一頭,早已沒有了等待。

2. 你走的那天,我決定不掉淚,迎著風撐著眼簾用力不眨眼。

3. 多謝你的絕情,讓我學會死心……

4. 木頭對火說:“抱我!”火擁抱了木頭,木頭微笑著化為灰燼!火哭了!淚水熄滅了自己……當木頭愛上烈火,注定會被燒傷。

5. 當眼淚流下來,才知道,分開也是另一種明白。

6. 我真的愛你,閉上眼,以為我能忘記,但流下的眼淚,卻沒有騙到自己……

7. 回家的路上我哭了,眼淚再一次崩潰了。無能為力這樣走著,再也不敢驕傲奢求了。我還能夠說些甚麼,我還能夠做些甚麼?我好希望你會聽見,因為愛你我讓你走了……

8. 是我的終究是我的,我終歸是你的一個過客,你始終不愛我,注定我和你就是什麼都不會發生,注定,注定只是注定,不管我怎麼跨越、不管我怎麼想靠近你,你還是會離開我的,我好想你,好想好想你,好想好想見你……

9. 分手後不可以做朋友,因為彼此傷害過;不可以做敵人,因為彼此深愛過。所以我們變成了最熟悉的陌生人。

10. 我能感覺到你的心痛,你有你說不出的無奈……但是你做出一副無所謂的樣子,你越是這樣我就越難受。

11. 有時,愛也是種傷害。殘忍的人,選擇傷害別人;善良的人,選擇傷害自己。

12. 你走了,帶著我全部的愛走了,只是一句分手。我忍著眼淚看著你的背影,好想最後再抱你一次,好想再對你說一次“我愛你”。

13. 魚上鈎了,那是因為魚愛上了漁夫,它願用生命來博漁夫一笑……

14. 歲月就象一條河,左岸是無法忘卻的回憶,右岸是值得把握的青春年華,中間飛快流淌的,是年輕隱隱的傷感。世間有許多美好的東西,但真正屬於自己的卻並不多。看庭前花開花落,榮辱不驚,望天上雲卷雲舒,去留無意。在這個紛繞的世俗世界裡,能夠學會用一顆平常的心去對待周圍的一切,也是一種境界。

15. 我們的生活有太多無奈,我們無法改變,也無力去改變,更糟的是,我們失去了改變的想法。

16. 人生最遺憾的,莫過於,輕易地放棄了不該放棄的,固執地,堅持了不該堅持的……

17. 有些失去是注定的,有些緣分是永遠不會有結果的。愛一個人不一定會擁有,擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛她。

18. 如果,不幸福,如果,不快樂,那就放手吧;如果,捨不得、放不下,那就痛苦吧。

19. 人生短短幾十年,不要給自己留下了什麼遺憾,想笑就笑,想哭就哭,該愛的時候就去愛,無謂壓抑自己。人生的苦悶有二,一是欲望沒有被滿足,二是它得到了滿足。

20. 所謂花心,就是有了愛情和面包,還想吃蛋糕的心情;所謂外遇,就是潛出圍城,跌入陷阱;所謂浪漫,就是幫老婆買包心菜時,還會順手帶回一支玫瑰花;所謂廚房,就是結婚時紅地毯通向的正前方。

21. 這個世界就這麼不完美,你想得到些什麼就不得不失去些什麼。

22. 戀愛,在感情上,當你想征服對方的時候,實際上已經在一定程度上被對方征服了。首先是對方對你的吸引,然後才是你征服對方的欲望。

23. 我放下了尊嚴,放下了個性,放下了固執,都只是因為放不下你。

24. 如果愛上,就不要輕易放過機會。莽撞,可能使你後悔一陣子;怯懦,卻可能使你後悔一輩子。

25. 沒有經歷過愛情的人生是不完整的,沒有經歷過痛苦的愛情是不深刻的。愛情使人生豐富,痛苦使愛情升華。

Please comment down which phrase you guys/gals most touching !! Thanks !! and , i am still - Single but NOT available !!

p/s : Song updated !! Be patient wait it load !!

nameless

haiz .. how i wish to use my real name to note down some remarks for her !! At least , we both will feel better right ??

but , i choosing to be the silencer or so called - invisible man !! I rather to be hidden all the way and observed her life !!! Thats why , im always the loser in this game !! Sometimes , spoken out is useless unless action is taken !! We all knew that , but ... there is always some hurdles to stop me do so !! This year , luck is not by my side !! Everything i do sure hit wall or bang bumpers ...

What to do , life still goes on ; and i gonna march forward slowly !! Because i cant fell down , i dont have the chance to slow down and i have my mission to complete with !!

And oh yea , need my blessing ?? How to bless others if you dont want to let go ?? I rather i keep my voice and assist you whenever you need !! Or , we can be a super stranger from now on !! =) i used to it already , my life are filled with single color - BLUE !! No RED color will occupy it , at least i confirm within 2 -3 months i will be still single but not available !! =) maybe after some up and down , my country will open tender again , who knows !! But i damn enjoy my own mood now , locking in a small room and peeping from the small window !! Its kinda .......... FRESH !!!

I LOVE KE PO GIRL !! KE PO in terms they love to talk and non-stop talking with me is the best !! Because i dont plan to be the noise maker all the time !! =D

ciaoz .. is time for bed again !!

KATRINA

Hmm .. This cap only got 1 in malaysia !! But , you really want ask him to make you one exactly d same ?? I dont think he will do so !! Unless you show out ur innocent, noob, cham, blur and a BIG SMILE to him , maybe that time he will think bout it !! Lols .. never thought that d shop is owned by your friend ark .. so next time i show your name i can get discount right ?? Xp ... if cannot , then the discount i will claim from you !! ngek ngek ngek ...

ever listen KATRINA before ?? hmm .. its a nice but pathetic song ! I have change the lyric for almost 2 hours , and i'ma gonna save it till the best time and i'll sing it for HER !! i knew the day will come , the day that she heart broke will come . So , im like a lil' devil preparing all the necessary steps in order to calm her down!! Plus must train a good shoulder so that can let her lean when times r right !! Woooooya , i never miss predict anything that in my mind is 99% correct. It same goes to my own life !! If it doesnt come now, it's just d matter of time !! So, i'ma gonna wait till it come !!

Im god damn relax now !! Hope Friday can hear some good news !! And yea .. study hard JAMES !! dont try to sneak out and pak tou or tea time or anything related to ur computer, jsut concentrate on ur studies for now !! 2 more days for ya lil' ass !! better prepare well !! You can do it !! =) All da best !!

DREAM - r.e.v.i.v.e

Her rabbit .. cute leh !! But she force him to pose rude fingers !!
This one more cham .. she force her to say rude words !! Somemore telling me she is willing to say it herself !! This kind of owner ark ... speechless !! Xp , silly mushroom , force ur babies to say rude words Xp ...


WAAA ....have been suffering to answer all those questions popping out from my brain !! Yea .. now then i found back the most critical answer that keep me as a whole till now - my DREAM !!


yea yea .. finally i get back the feeling of become a strong young ambitious entrepreneur again !! not because of the fail session of interview today , or because of an offering from the bestfoodjunction.com in the afternoon just now, it is because of a word !! Ur life is fill with business blood , u will not succeed if you working for others , u will not happy if u working for others , and finally u will not shine if u working for others.


Oh yea ... my web site is almost done !! Except that the Co-ordinate and payment form plus email link is still dead !! Sigh , what to do , the one in charge is so busy !! This only making both of me n james to keep waiting and paying to yahoo for nothing only !! Hosting plus web address thing is not a cheap thing , we paid for 2 months but in return we still not yet see anything comes out from it !! Sigh .... But good news is , our web got improvement !! not like the dull plus unprofessional previous web site !! This time i feel relief a bit !!


Hmm .. on the other hand , my fibre business is very good !! Except that now is in a rush to get complete our quotas !! hmm .. there is still a bit more to fill up with !! So , must gambateh to fight the quotas already !!


Talking bak to my big big plan - ADVERTISING ! GG lar this time , no news at all beside seeing my own advisor busy with his mobile power biz !! Zzz ... This time can die lor !! Haiz ...
and oh yea .. thou all of my plans are stuck with some obstacles , but it wont stop me from moving forward !! i gotta break the stones , throw it away and make a good path to move forward !! never say no before die !! =)

18.08.08

Owhhh .. happy birthday mr botak !! you are officially 22 now !! no more 21 for u , so the key no need to wear anymore .. because its over !! Xp

Wow .. just took a 2 hours rest last night and i was like a superman going for function and dinner @Genting highland till 1am just reached home !!!

EEewwww ... today no much surprises happened in life beside see-ing elaine's chio sis plus Xp , CP LENG LUI Hugging me and take photo !! Xp ... Daniel , u kena Ta Pao la , see i no need ask more they will entertaint me one !! =)


Oh my GOD !! Bad case Bad Thing Bad Bad Bad .... First , Broke jo this month !! Going to deal with financial matter again !! Second , where the heck if my work ?? IT should be done by this week right ?? How come i still see no improvement from it , what the @#$% !!! Third , picture making me think he is a bastard (again) !! But , i learnt from the past , better let 'em hit the wall and get the lessons before giving more advices and help to them ! Since it wont help much !!
And Last ... i manage a new skill - What Happens there End there !! No more prolong of enjoyment , no more prolong of suffer-ness and no one prolong of dreaming !!! Life is better if i pursuit this type of mind-set !!

Waiting

wua ... more than 10 persons waiting me !! Really this time !! LoLs .. after club .. more than 10 persons waiting me to finish my chat with an important person !! Huh .. saw me crying rite ?? right out side the club and crying out there !! :P Lols ... rare to see right ? But it is all true !! Cant deny that i telling out the deepest feeling of my own agan !! to the one guy who just came back from england not long ago !! Hmm .. maybe he is another library that can store my secret at !!

Really .. i felt so relieve when i cried in front of him and told him what is really hiding inside of my own !! He , felt my pain ! He , within his eyes , felt my emotion !! He , told me not to give up !!

And He ( the other he) , told me not to give up , and show to the one who look down on us becareful in the future , We , shud build an empire soon !! WE , got the power to change history !! And He, believe that our life is not depends on the fucking shit of degree that we gotta obtained in the future !! we , living now because we gotta build a better living soon !!

I believe that i have lock my heart within two girls which not belong to me !! I can see my future with either of them , and i cant breahte without connecting either of them !! I , without asking their permission , have my ownself along their lifes !! and i , really making myself living like a dwarf which need to seek assistance from the snow white !!!

I especially Thanks to friends live in Subang , J.I. , and Setiawan who accompany me tonight and giving me all the support and words that i need to hear !! Really, a simple greeting or text is enough to make me walk till the END !!! I LOVE YOU GUYS !! It rocks my life !!!

Dont look down to anyone who below us, because they are willing to do anything in order to success as i gonna do anything in order to make myself the headline in the paper of Malaysia !! Really , stay tune and u will see ALEXLYNN is on the PAPER for something good !! Dont you agree my partners ?? We are going to make difference in our society !!


I LOve You Guys especially those who support me !! I Love The birthday boi , giving so much courage and i Love Both of you girls that giving me a reason to get rich before approaching either of you again !! You both make sense of madness as i really lose my way to seem to anyone who understand me !! sometimes i just hope to get at least a greeting from a gal everyday to ask bout me , and i tried to reach all of u everyday , now and forever , i will be the MAN !!

Go on Girl ... as long as you are happy , all these times , i will live happily !!!

Especially thanks To David !! Thanks for caring me , i really speechless for your godness as you knew me just for a short time , u are an avid listener plus a good friend to make with !!

Gosh .. i gotta sleep now !! because i knew i stil have a long way to go ... Thanks Ladies and Gentlemen !! i LOVE you guys !! i really do


I LOVE my ex- IRENE and i LOVE PEGGIE who steal the reason of my life to stay at west malaysia !! =) all the best to all my friends !! i might leave the BLOG for sometimes soon !! hope to see you guys soon !! felt free to visit www.twomads.com !! Will have more updates there on my series of goodwill and donation will write on it !! All da best and Selamat Berjaya Di Kehidupan Kawan Kawan Ku !! Ku CINTAI MU !!!

Aint it too rush ??

Lols .. never been happy like that !! Happy is normal case , but standing in the middle of problems and can laugh it out is the first time experience for me !! LOLs ... HE inspired me today !! Look at his expression really making me felt so relieve todaY !! Gar Yao lar Heng Dai , you making my life easier lar !! Really bro , thou u knew my problem right now , but oni few of ur suggestion really can lighten my burden !! Wakaka .. Wait us go to Pearl , Lols .. That time want those who look down on us one die kao kao !! Funny la wei ... u suddenly told me this kind of things !! Really making me relief leh !! No worry ! We can make it if we believe !! Like ur SECRET book taught you rite , how to think it ark ??? Think it positively and you shall make it , right ?? So ... i should listen more advice from you this newbie psychologist lor !! Xp

And oh yea .. this is the Chinese Lyric i LOVE most !! Sharing with you guys !! See i emo for few days already .. but this Song making my life better !! Heal IT INSTANTLY !!

风走在我们前面 甩裙摆画着圆圈歌
花美得兴高采烈 那香味有点阴险词
你在我旁边的旁边 但影子却肩碰肩转
偷看一眼你的唇边是不是也有笑意明显
明明是昨天的事情 怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题 我们再这样下去 你猜会走到哪里
但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电 就够我快乐熔化
我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻 
就这样触电 一直甜蜜触电 直到爆炸 
 
像一年四个季节 都被你变成夏天 
我才会在你面前 总是被晒红了脸 
像一百万个秋千 在我心里面叛变 
被你指尖碰到指尖 我瞬间就被荡到天边

U-N-P-R-E-D-I-C-T-A-B-L-E

一命,二运,三风水。 All are the elements which are unpredictable in life !! I though i won a race in the finance messiness i dealt with, who knows there is still much more challenges ahead waiting for me !!

I'm emo recently !! Ya my lil' sister, i said i worry bout ur life over there, quarreling with your so called EX Bestmate on some modem stupid matter!! somemore writing big big there dancing like cha-cha or other moves, forget bout it !! Hmm , sick already then no need listen Ah Pa advice la, straight go buy some medicine to eat la !! Zzzz ... u are not a small kid. Take care yourself there bahs !! Dont let we all worry bout u o !! Somemore 2am also dont want go to bed !! thats why get sick easily lor !! (*>__<) if still felt unwell , go see doc , okay ??

waa ... how do you want me to show a happy face if i am surrounded by so many troubles !!?? i really dont know how to pretend that i am happy !! But at least i am trying to solve my problems one by one !! Think back the root of the troubles - BIG PLAN get stuck for more than 6 months !! Oh My GOD, i really wanted to cry if i got the chance to do so !! Sometime i really wished that sitting alone in Nanako and enjoying the bucket i order !! At least, like that i wont need to think much !! Or should i listened and follow order , back to my home sweet home !! There is less pressure i need to face with , a comfortable life plus a baby waiting me !! And oh yea, my so call daughther is quite big , almsot 5 years old !! LoLs .. =) what a big gurl , i just step out to the big world and she is studying at kindergarden. Really cant fight with the time because it flies with a maximum speed which we cannot measure !!

Life is so unpredictable ! Whenever you think you are holding with , in the next minute you might have the chance to lost it !! Whenever you think that is over , Angel will goes round you and making ways for you to go thru !! I , speechless with my own dream !! Donno whether this is a fallen angel dream or the GREED within myself creating illusion during my last night dream !! i saw a path ... really !! Its hard to share out here ! Hmm .. maybe this is time to call mum to ask for some assistance !!

what i quote before : Picture speaks a million !! But for now , i want to quote a better things : Picture always decieve !!

LONE-RANGER

I figured out that , GOD wanted me to be alone from now on because of HER !!! I decided to wait for now on although i am 100% confirm that SHE got a new boyfriend , there is no coincidence that i gotta wait till her break up and i just gotta wait there !!

Sometime i really wished i can find a love in the club !! But it aint my style !! And baby will come closer and let daddy look at ya'' , but not to stay with ya'' for the rest of my life !! So , i really dont believe can find a love in the club !!

Oh baby , i wont give up waiting !! I listen to the FATE of mine !! Persevere is the key to unlock my success and target !!

Ya friend , no worry for my EMO-ness lately !! I really burdened by all the wordload on my shoulders !! I shall go for an easy path right ?? BEing early out to work then 6 pm off and back to home , this is so called EASY LIFE and having a RM2800 on hand , is kinda worthy for a graduate that holding a Bachelor Degree like me !! But , how come i so stubborn and choosed the hard path ?? Having to earn some living by increased the burden on my shoulder , mentally pressuring myself plus having to pass my life so 'ke lian' !! Till now , i still not yet figure out my answer !! But the proper way to describe my attitude is - i m a risk taker !! No risk No Return !! I love challenges !! Being an entrepreneur is not an easy task !! Somemore i have passed up my plan which forced me to wait for a right timing !! The business plan is just having ITS 1st anniversary , but yet i am still waiting to execute and operate the business !! At first , i am the one who rushing the plan , scaring that i will waste my time like that ; now the other 2 partners felt the same pressure too !! I think 3 of us should really sit down and seek out one solution , then we gotta talk with out BOSS already , we cant keep wait like that !! One day in the future when i get rich , i will never forget how i pass my 22 -23 years old life !! I raising fund for my business by all the mean !! I rise my own self by a lot of method but not the illegal ways !! And i got all the support from friends along the route to see my 1st tong of GOLDS !!!


I hate to be alone !! I hate it !! But , good guys always dont deserve a good girl !! Amitofo , my ex-es are all good girls , but i am bad boi !! Now i want to become good guy , but i dont even deserve a bad girl to share my time with !!

And i really dont know how to start a topic with 'BITCH' on it !! Because i dont know whether is that my right to comment on them !! i can write for a 7k words of essay on the bitches i have met during my college life !! There is so many bitches out there !! But now i want to advertise again , i seeking for Cinderella !! OR Snow White also boleh !! And ishhhh ... no 'sao nga mui' for me !! And no pork chop allow !! I so slim , how to makan those oily stuff la !! Dont try to intro 'fei mui' clan for me okay ?? Ciaoz .. is time to rest , my skin is turning back due to over stress this few days plus lacking the time for resting my mind !!

p/s : Dav ark Dav , consider what i said in the Mamak just now !! LoLs ... SHE IS URS !!! Xp !! Okay la .. i knew u both no relation , no 'ai mei' , have nothing .... but .. hohoho !! Lets TIE the red thread between both of you , maybe there will be something happen !! Kekekeke .. and please dont sing the song to me , i dont need it already !! Now i enjoy my Collection of Baby Face, K, Boyz II Men songs !!!

CANTONESE BLOG (18SG)

oh shittt ... i am sick !! Cough ... Sob .. !! no one take care me , thats why sick lo !!
hmm ... here i go with my Cantonese blog !! Hmm .. words wrong please teach me to write the correct one !! And oh ya , content : Faul Language , Aggresive Term 18SG







吊你无懒需要特别动机,无吊你以为自己好懒yeng.系都打飞机,吊你啦。

Support MC 仁 and his new album !! Hmm .. here is the link to listen the song !! ER ... GALS are not allow to listen !! Contained too many Foul Language !! Boys are Allow !! Rwak n Roll !!

http://www.tingcool.com/1/6854/16316/201235.htm

Oh yea .. request from public !! Need me write Post Bout 贱人 !!Let me think properly before i start once which is meaningful !! Because my mind only got two leh !! but if i wrote out , i will make someone angry me !! so , that two samples cannot use !! Let me think bout it first k !! :)

and oh yea .. 客家人 do enjoy the above link MUSIC !!! FUC KIN MUSIC Rwaks again !! Thanks to MC 仁 , Chef and TT !!

IMPORTANT | MIX FEELING & TRUE STORY

oh my GOD .. got news to share out here !! i dont think this time with picture can speak out all my feeling !! news as in good or bad !! i personally dont know where to start with , if follow the flow of my life , good things come in first before bad things spoil the mood !! So, here it goes ...

Leaving the blog world and facing the reality show for two days is really enough for me !! i have learnt to share things with my brother , learn to leave some space for my own and keeping all the secret between me and my bear !! This FEeling is awesome !! i felt great once again !! i love to control things but i hate to be controlled by FATE !! everything i do this year , all of it is lack of luck and fate , is this what Ling Ling Sifu want to hint me that this year is very very very BAD to me ?? Oh ya .. i knew this is so true !! Because what she said is all happen -ing to me now !!

Actually good things is not really so big news to me , business is starting to blossom , someone give me a good call !! Bringing some news tat i wan to listen , and i really saw money flowing in my bank now !! =) oh ... feeling so good !! and , i never expect that when i bring something to my friends , they will get motivated by so much !! REALLY never !! but it happens !! dont know is that they are in excitement period , or really the things are working ?!?! i am kinda confuse , but one thing i UN is that things work out perfectly this time !! yea yea .. i calling over you , and you are still ss-ing with my silly so call sai mui there , hmm , life is great over there !! Well Done .. *Applause* for you as you found a new life !!

ahem ahem .. good things really wont presist for too long !! counting date is stopped half way !! because we knew this is over !! and the figure is not accurate too !! ishhhh ..... i got a smart brother to guess away all the miracle box in my head , he is smart !! and he really become another person !! is it because of Ling Ling Sifu motivate him one ?? Love to talk a lot , tease people to the max and start getting all of the clue on my mind !! Happy to see him turn to the type of person i wish him to be !! Yayaya .. dont pull the topic away !! Since this paragraph should leave to bad news right ? For me , CAreer and Love .. Sifu ask me choose one !! Alamak .. how to answer ??? Love ?? CAreer ?? *dick dock dick dock* no answer for it !! Because i want own both !!! She , got a new bf ; He , is still single but no more available !! And Me , with the head of loving to get tortured by hard feeling ...

Till now , i just realised where is all the motivation comes from , i love to see myself get hurt , because i learn to control my temper there , i learn to ride on it ; not to be ride by them !! And i really get motivated once i felt down !! Because , my R8 is waiting me , our dream of riding some hot horse is still clear in my mind and how i enjoy laying on a feather sofa is still hot in brain !! i love emotionally abused by others because i am freak , one of a kind like GENIUS !! i felt more idea once my feeling is abused by others . I felt empty when i was living in a wonderful and relaxing life. Only mentally abused me , making me felt upset , making me felt i am loser i will get the will to turn every bad things good again !! LIKE NOW , i am gonna see my RM 1million turns into my bank ! LIKE NOW, i am gonna see how friends teamwork can earn a big fortune together ! AND LIKE NOW, i am gonna taste the power of being supported by friends !! I strongly believe GOD will never set a hard path on us , only we as an silly minded terresterial walk in a hard way .

What start here should end here !! I lost anything in the battle field , i will grant it back there !! Frankly speaking , i love people frank with me !! back stabber is a NO for me !! i Love friends support me , my boss said want help me hit him , my partner with a 6 in life want to become evil with me to break his belonging , my soul mate said will help me curse him every week behind Petaling Street , my brother say will teman me whack him even thou will cause him another scar !! I am happy with it !! They help me win back all the necessary feeling from the emotional battle field !!

If my friends still dont know me by now , they will never never know me anymore !! Even some small little kids can see me so clear !!

FYI , xiao wai ark ... yeap la .. i got mix feeling for almost 1 hour leh !! They never settle down !! Bouncing like a pin ball that is never gonna stop !! My heart like got a knife stab in, my world is like stopping for 3 second ; but all this thing is just gonna make me tougher !! Poh poh also said i make someone tougher. So do some other fella will make me tougher !! Each day from now , i will live in more realistic way , more meaningful day !! i work hard because i never said die to my current poor situation !! i said no to drug because i used to see how other lose their life in it !! Remember , i always said : ei , wai ark ..what if we got money we fly to Manchester for one match of LIVE ?? really , i am always dream of using own money to do my dream job !! But , i am still wroking hard on it !!

Once my very best friend asked me : Hey , Chi Yee , are u serious ?? You writing that ur dream job for almost 10 years ( primary n secondary school time my school used to have weird survey) for the same position : 何志宇想成为军火走私大亨 !! Because of this few little chinese words , i was sent to counselling for more than 10 times !! because of this silly things , my parents are scaring that one day i will do bad things because i wan to get rich !!! Time flies when we are happy , until now , i am 23 of age , finally i dont have the idea to get rich by the mean of doing something that will hurt our society !! But , in fact , i would love to create a LOVE society as what i have plan to take out the money i earn from my web to donate out to the needs !! although i wont take 100% out , but at least i with my partner have make a verbal agreement to take few hundred thousands out to donate for the orphan !! They are our future leader , without them we cannot see future !! And they deserved better life not just that throw aside in the corner and earn a living as a cheap labour .

wua ... actually to learn control the mix feeling is quite hard leh !! but i want to give myself an applause , today , i just have a small tear drop down , and i never try to listen rock music to calm my mind !! in stead , i listening soft music and forcing myself to calm down !! and this is just a beggining , there is more to learn !! And thanks a million to you ark botak , u seem like can sense my feeling whenever i tell u something ark , u seem can read my mind when i put out something ; u drink GREEN liao is it , become so smart d !! =) okie la .. last year we'v ebeen to bangkok together rite ? this year , if we manage to earn enough , lets go to Manchester , i serious d , i paid the hotel , makan n air ticket u kao tim urself !! ngek ngek ngek ... Ferdinand , here we come !! wakakaka !! i am take an autograph from him !! =)

by the way , i love blogging !! because i think whatever i said here , is so real , no need go add oil add salt add vinegar !! Life is so real here !!! whatever i blog out , is something i believe is true and something i want to share !! Not like real life , sometime we need to see situation , if not , talk something wrongly , will cause a lot damage to us !!

and for those kawan kawan who are get surrounder by my private life lately . for all ur guys gals ladies gentlemen information , no more news will come out btween me n her !! everything is over for now !! Full time 0-0 !! nothing good or bad happen !! no worry man !! i am still the evil me !! and thanks for paying attention to my blog !! and being so patient to read all of the words !! because i found out that boys blog is so not attractive , readers are love to go after bloggers who are girls especially pretty chiq , hot chiq , sexy chiq !! and one more handsome guys , but i dont htink handdsome guys will spend time on blog .. normally they will use all their time beating some stick , flirting hot chiq , bull on some shit and bla bla bla !!! so .. very very appreaciate for the HARD TIME you guys spend on my BLOG !! Ciaoz .. tonite 到此为止 !!

BACK|TO|HELL

once again , i back to hell !! oh yea , i do love hell a lot !! at least , all of us in the place are evil !! non of it are different !! no angel in that place !! i met a lot of my junior , ex classmate bla bla bal over there !! i even met with my ex-housemate there !! but , she looked enjoying with the conversation with my lovely brother !!! aiya .. dont k la , at least i still talk wif my funny friend - yen and galfrens Xp . yeah yea ... once again , i burn my liver with the pure alcohol , once again i contaminated my lungs with the mentol cigarette !! hmm , if this is not hell , what can i descirbe it ??


oh ya ... i found out another ROSHAN in the club !! he is a funny guy , popping around with the 200cm body !! LoLs .. i nid to take my head up in order to talk with him !! Amazingly , he friend with the chinese tough boucer as i do !! And his body is so flexible , popping around !! Oh yea ... nice to meet you !! When i go Kelantan we should meet and go for seafood as you told me !! hehe !!


tonight ,i really relax my mind !! Shouting in the club , dancing like a monkey , jumping like an ape and hopping like a big fat rabbit !! every stress is put down in the club !! Life should like this , whenever we not happy , we shout it out !! whenever we get bully , we voice out !! Hohohoho ... i take out my heart and talked with friends again !! HE agreed what i said ; i appreciate he listened to it !! ANd WE agreeed that i continue to go after her !! This is the best interest for all of the parties !! Oh yea .. i dont want to hint it anymore , later will cost me a lot !! =P i just demand more time to build a TRUST , a more known database between each other , nothing else !! =) i with botak also need used almost 3 years to build a trust between each other right ??? Pyramid is not build within a week , so do trust , love , relationship !! We should give each other more time , freedom , space in order to know more !! Xp ... babi you guys ... i vomit u all very happy is it !! i makan indo mee double for dinner only !! Who is the one kept asking go to club !! Cis betul ... i the one tolong others minum all the pure pure liquor .. cin kak la .. gals also want bully , somemore she is my friend leh , tak tolong macam not good !! Cheh ... at least i am clear and awake after the 2 minutes of suffering !! i do enjoy it max !! XD ... long time never suffer like that ... my liver felt the pain , my stomach felt the heat and i myself feel the steps within my heart !! i want to JUMP, DANCE .... XD !!! I love CLEAN CLUBBING !!! :)


oh by the way .. sorry la tak ajak some of my kawan go to club .. because this session is made all in a sudden , i cannot ajak all of u guys attend , no worry , i promised to organise one by gathering right ?? ready ur name card ... we all need to exchange info there !! =) gogogo , ale ale ale ... wait for my big plan bahs !!! Jya .. is time for bed !!

backtoblog

i am back to world of blog !! wow ... i felt the term of LIFE IS LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER !! i have mix feeling and mood for the past two days !! Happy , Excited , Sad , Down , Emo , Lost !! All of these feelings are surrounding me for the past two days !! Friends are still friends !! Giving me a candle while i were in the darkest moment !! Holding my hand cross the road , Finger Crossing showing me confident and be my avid listener when i want to bull shit a lot and complaint a lot !! Wow .. this is so called life !! Having different feelings and mood within 2 days is really challenging !! Suddenly u see i crapping around like normal me and laughing non-stop ;but after tea session , will whining like a big baby in the room !!

oppsss ... time going out for business !! so will continue with my blog tonite !! and hell yea , Olympic is starting , but i dont have any interest on it !! so its non of my business !! Xp

华文的部落客

我发现自己迷失了方向!其实是不是听多了不好的东西人就会变不开心?!?我总以为我是个乐观的人,但今晚我深深的体会到了另一个绝境!!这种感觉次乎我也感受过!!那应该是半年前了吧!!

人生往往总会遇到挫折;但这次也太过长了吧!!! 我好想让我自己泪流,但我找不到好的场所让我的眼睛双红!也许是时间去会一会我的旧(酒)朋友了!!


我的手,心,手机都变的冷冷地。。。这应该是我等的太久了!! 其实一天一笑,一问候,一了解,应该可以把彼此的关系拉近,但有时,我应该是不够耐性,把不必要的麻烦都搞了出来。。。真的很懊恼啊。。。

新的生活来了,新的车,新的费用。。。一切一切,我还不能掌控的了,我该怎么办啊!!难道真的要逼自己去打工,做一些不开心的事才能如愿轻松的生活吗?创业真的把我搞得半条人命,因为创业需要一笔钱,生活不好!! 打工有一笔钱,生活很好!!但是我想工字永远没出头,所以乘自己还年轻,创出一番事业 !! 最坏的是没人支持我,这条路我真的走的好辛苦!!我好想有一个精神寄托,起码,她还会支持我的梦想 !! 但,我想这一年都应该没什希望了!!

父亲,谢谢您的耐性!! 我从没对家里付出任何贡献,但您真的为我解了不少烦恼!!我只希望您会一路给我支持!!


收到她和他的讯息,另我心情好了点!!但如何把距离都减的最低??如果给我选择,我希望可以得到新的;因为旧的已死了!!永远都不能把温暖放及她 !!新的是陌生的,挑战性,距离感,全都得由零开始 !!

。。。。。。。。永远有多近??我看不到 。。。。 但,至少现在我懂,身边的不可以,不是她 !!!

away from blog world [2daysperiod]

i miss , i love , i cherish , i commit [not the therms to use right now]

i think bout , i like , i notice , i try [the right terms to use right now]

hmm .. its not a good day !! reality not equal to my creativity !! no 1, web should be get done by today , but yet i still need to wait ... ishhhhhh ! 2nd, office house ?? house office ?? which is the true term ?? and what kind of environment it will be ?!? ish betullll again !! 3rd , the usual things i love to wonder , all is mixing up and down right now !!!! (>___<*)

finally , please give us some space !! i not belong to anyone right now , i am me , she not commited to anyone too !! Later create unnecessary problem then tak bagus lor !! Oh yea Oh yea ... club club , i am coming back soon with our new look !! Roaaarrr like a lion , party like a rwaaaakkk star , act like a super star , talk like a freak star , smile like a twinkle twinkle little star and FUCK like a porn star !!!


I ONLY WANT TO SEE E SMILE !! Oh yea ... nagging from parents should be the best thing we ever get !! If they dont nag us , then they are forgetting us plus less caring us !! So , just see things the other way you should find it out that a lot of people is caring you !!

tobe | nottobe

hmm .. fate ark fate !! how come love to fool me around ?? hmm , is it must insist on my decision ?? resisting something tat i thought before is a good sign ??

goshhhh .. i m so damn blur with my current situation now !! beside working so hard from august , i really have no idea what my future will lay at !! cant really see clearly where can i stay on !! but , one thing for sure , i must insist , persevere and never say die to my target !! this is the FATE that will never change !! Action must be taken , initiative must be motivated out and results are all wait me in the end point !!


ei .. kawan kawan , abang adik , kakak kakak ... [- .-'] dun pressure miss P ark ... lols .. all suddenly go view profile !! nanti the rahsia very fast terbocor one !! Let everything goes smoothly , got onot is the other things jo !! (^.^~)v happy that all of you are supporting me ark !! LoLs ... i knew i never get a bad apple before right ?? thats why my standard is always stay in the high rank !!

hate interview damn much !! what kind of interview i never went thru before , CEO , Director , GM bla bla bla .. all is kinda bull shit !!! i gonna love my own business much , putting more time and effort + getting my returns from it is far more better than the offer i going to get from all this sick job !! working for others is just an excuse to cover someone mouth !!! i HATE interviewwwwwwwwwwww !! Yet , i need to go [T_________T*]

OH-MY-GOD



oh gosh .. i love this book so much !! and yeah .. u going to get me one right mr wayne !! [=__=`] dun forget bout it ark !! even u forget i will also keep remembered u like a beeeeeeeee turning around ur head !! see the cin kak face of this cute baby , how enjoying of his expression !! I hope that i will have the mood of him everyday !!

another sleepless night for me !! i slept for less than 16 hours for 3 days !! but yet , i am still feeling energitic !! Whats all this bout ??? my brain is filled with idea , plans and ways of execution while mid night is coming !! Gosh .. its killing me !! cannot even take a good sleep !!

ahem ahem .. ladies and gentlemen , i am ..... FALLING IN LOVE AGAIN !! i felt that my heart is beating faster than usual !! i felt that i am the feeling of waiting is comes alive once more !! oh my gosh lo .. this is not a good sign !! my heart should stop in the past and never thinking about of having an extraordinary beatin' and pulse !! someone ... someone please save meeeeeeee !!

sad.sigh.sob

aiyo ... application for the GF vacancy seem like got a bit respond o !! but all came with the grade of 'YEWWWW' !! haiz ... 要的没来,不要的就一萝萝!! this time really 'lai ye' !!

yawn yawn ... suppose to see my work yesterday !! mana tahu designer told me that he still working very hard on the things !! haiz .. how come a lot hurdle in my life la !!

hmm ... want to share TWO WORDS with you all : Learn from Orientation

Genting Highland = 云顶 害人(High - land)
4D (ToTo) = Duduk Diam-diam Dapat Duit

XD ... what a good term !!! :)

Pc Fair

wow ... been out to PC FAIR for some purpose for the whole day !! morning is going out to Kepong for Dim Sum !! Then reach KLCC around 2pm !! Then what i call this operation as 'shark hunting' , we search the whole Pc Fair for more than 5 times !! but i still could not find her !!! just can see Kei Fei and Vern Li working for Kingston redemption centre !! Ceh .. i thought going to ask the details from the counter then can lock in and minise the area of searching !! mana tahu ... sigh !! i was almost heart broken for getting nothing for today !! so tired !! Sleeping for only less than 2 hours then went out for the whole day but end up only go out joke around but did nothing !!

Hmm .. Ling Ling's Master was right !! i should not turn and turn around in the same point sometime !! Look forward , be persevere on my goals !! At Last , i shall see my light !! Hohoho .. almost 8pm that time finally let me saw her !! Lols .. (^^,)v wakaka !! almost cant recognise her as my eyes are really falling down and i am so damn tired that kept walking for the whole day !! LoLs ... Ling Ling's master really accurate !! No need force something if i felt that the thing will come naturally !! Lets work hard and wait for the result !! Things wont change in a sudden , it takes time to transform your hard work , it needs me be patient while waiting result !!! :)

Conclude ... i am very very happy today !! eeekkk .... its not happy only , its very very very excited for today !! LOLs

7 and 9

i need a 7 and 9 !! lols ... yea yea !! my life is filled up with bumpers , up and down , just like u see a wave/tide in the beach !! when things come to the best !! they will end very soon !! when i faced with very bad times , i shall see my lights when i fought hard enough !!

Eeeekkk .. how come wor !! why i only can choose for either one , Love or Career ?!?! Why not both ?? u[<.<*]u haiz ... this is what meant to be !! FATE !!

oh yea ... finally i really seek out what is so blur with me !! why i always cant seek the success within me thou i got the planning , motivation , action , creativity ; i am lack of CONSISTENCY + INSISTING !! wakaak ... madam said i must not felt down when there is hurdle in my life , must not stop doing the things that i wish to get when there is a STOP sign in front of me . in fact , i must go ahead and bang more stones down in order to see my great achievement in life !! :) yeah yeah ...agree with it !! there is not easy work in my life !!

i can only get whatever i want by putting more effort + never say DIE !! [^___^] i find the new tittle in my life again !!! for work and for you , i will never say stop !!

GirlFriend Needed !! URGENT !!

GirlFriend Vacancy
Name :
Friendster Add:
Age:
number of Ex BF:
please send all ur details to alexlynn@hotmail.com !! this is not a joke !! i am serious i hiring my girlfriend !! good remuneration !!

Requirement :

  1. Pierce tounge / belly
  2. Tattoo
  3. Short Hair
  4. Bracer (As long as you got wear before or wearing now)
  5. A sweet sound like Cheong Pak Chi
  6. Good looking

As long as you hit any two of the above conditions , you are encouraged to apply !! Never has any of the terms above is welcome to apply too , i will set you as waiting list !! :)

p/s: a good boy fren like me is hard to find !! so hurry up apply for it Xp !!

i|me|myself

have no photo to upload today !! bcoz i dun plan to take any photo !! i am very emo now !! er , at least i can control my emo-ness , i wont simly go out shout or bite !! but , i felt my mood is swinging like rollercoaster !! i cant make it peaceful u(T.T*)u !! At first , i thought wat is so good making my ex have a long conversation with me !! alamak betul , all of my friends knew jor also will say :' see, monyet is going to have his berry back' !! hey hey hey , all dun misunderstood k ? i personally really never see any chance of miracle will happen now !!! so , i always keep a normal heart on this matter !! somemore , i really put down a lot jor !! Really , i mean it !! then , i still mong cha cha how come she kept said i never change !! or in other words , why said i m still tat lembu in the way i do things ?? did i throwing temper on u again ?? did i make u sad again ? or did i do anything wrong again ?? And oh yea , my previous blog is really filled with frustated words pluse emotion , that is what i think la , i hate one of ur fren because i think she is using you all the way !! and yeah , i am the type of man who keeps my words !! i promise to greet u in happiness on ur future , i said liao i will do !! yaya .. i m unpredictable sometime , i can be crazy i can be serious , i can be true i can be fake , i can be sincer i can be motive actor !! but at least if i promise , i will do it !! thats my principle !! nah ... just forget bout it la !! i sincerely say SORRY to u if i cause u any hard feeling for Yesterday !! Sorry !! and yeah , u dont want me mention her right ? see , i remember , i never mention the fella , okay ?? i meet your expectation ??! at least i try to become and adapt as a best friend role now !!


and back to the big things which double strike on me !! and yea , i know this world is cruel !! i know hard to survive in a big city like KL !!i really do , i swear !! nowadays , not only pretty chiqs talking bout the issue of being materialistic , even the UGLY ones also going on the same trend - MATERIALISTIC too!! what strikes me till i so emo ark !! i think u guys shud know what i want mentioning here lor !! Right ?? is it Bread is more important than Love in a relationship ?? is it there is always money can buy love thing exist in this big city?? sincerely, my ex with me seldom use my money , i mean even she use it , she spend it wisely !! she will buy back something equalvalent to me !! ya ma , sure like tat one lor , tak kan i buy for u , u never give me some prezzie ?? then this is call not fair lor !! If the term of FEMALE and MALE is EQUAL in this city is stand , is correct and is agree by gals , then my theory of exchanging gift between couple also stands !! Hmm , if sometime have a small prezzie, or some special occasion , i think a boi must 'sek do' lo, prepare present for the other half !! But if like it cost you few hundreds monthly in order to buy the relationship you are having now , i dont think it is a stable LOVE STORY , the relationship sure will appear problem one day as if the boi start not treating the gf so good one day , or start less Sparkle in life , bring less gf go to hang kai , movie or travel , then the GF will feel tired or less life or sien or boring towards this relationship !! and this lead to the problem of less communication and goes on to less caring on each other and END up , BREAK UP with each other !! actually i am super optimistic guy , as what you all knows , i can be funny all the time , and when time comes , i am serious with my job !! But ,i always dream of that every of the girl i met will be those type of 体谅 understanding one ! understanding in terms of she knows that this is hard to earn a penny in this society , so they will know the rule of A-A !! But, i dont think i will have strike for a 3rd GF who really understanding !! Oh yea , 1sst and 2nnd really understanding me enough , thats why until now i still cant forget how good are them to me !! thats why i still can keep it as a best friend with them after we broke up !! because we all knew that the life of being human is not easy , money is hard to earn , easy to spend !! thats why !!! hmm , yea , i knew in all of a sudden i told u all this u will sked off by me , but what i want to say is , we really so strange to each other now !! but it seems like i m owez the magnet to the surrounding , i love to talk , i love to joke , people are attracted by me !! so , whatever you told me as a SECRET ,i wont speak it out , i got another rule , Things happened where and it will end there !! There is no point to spread it out !! funny and small case are exemption of it !! and , i know la , i am a blund , dull , sparkleless diamond for now !! But at least I WILL WORK FOR LOVE!no matter how hard and how much my gf demand , i will work it out for her !! I'm serious and sincere with it !! But , trust is build from a longer horizont , takkan u simply go 'kao lui' on those gals u duno one and start couple life with them , am i right ? you can do it for one night stand , but not for a long term relationship !! And hell yeah , i am despo for a good gf to take care of me now !! anyone interested to apply this vacancy ?? OPEN VACANCY ON BEING ALEXLYNN GIRL FRIEND o(>.<*)oo !! can try contact me thru my email , leave ur application there on alexlynn@hotmail.com !! and yea , i love nice stuff !! i love nice people !! and if u asking me is it there is any of the favourite gals u might hope they apply for it , the answer is ....... YA LA !! But what to do , who want a poor egg now ?!?! /(U.U*)/ so sad to get to know that my luck is really in a poor form this year !! lucky still got a lot friends supporting me along my career , if not , can say GG to me now !! and yea , i hinting that at least she will apply it , really , sincere or for fun , just apply it bahs !!

haiz .. i should not talk so much sometimes !! it makes myself so blur , messy and wild !! i want a P-E-A-C-E in my life !! arrrrrrgggghhhh , what can i do !?!?

Ahem ahem , i always mention , if a girl has INTERCOURSE with male for more than the quantity of 1 , i wont choose this kind of lady !! and yea , i insist on this idea !! Either new or 2nd hand for me , no 3rd or 4th or so on to me , if so , they are always be stay with me as PIT STOP only , their road shall be continued !! Lucky , luckily , and seem like arrange by GOD !! All of the one i really plan to go on with , is all First or Second hand !! :) there is still something good happen to me !! okie la .. a lot of rubbish words today AGAIN !! better stop here thou i still got a lot to write .... Nites all my fellow friends !!